Thursday, June 26, 2008

And it starts...

Well, I think I've decided something about myself: I like change.

I know, I know...this probably isn't a news flash to many of you if you've known me any period of time. Honestly though, I think I thrive on it a bit. I'm gearing up for a big change right now. As of July 11th, I will no longer be employed. I'm on my way to a new city with no place to live and no idea how I will sustain myself. And even as I type that I have to smile. There is something appealing about the mystery, the chance to rely so heavily on God to meet my every need. I won't be able to do this without Him. Something about that is so fun. :)

Yeah, it has its scary moments too. Like when I think about the specifics... What about health insurance? What if my car breaks down? What if they won't let me defer my student loans? Well, then I'll stop...or I'll do something different...or I'll find another way, I suppose. All I know is I heard "Go". He must have the rest figured out. Until then I'll continue with my roller coaster feeling. You know the one...when you're on the ride and it starts climbing...and climbing...and climbing...and you don't know when you're gonna drop, but you're scared and excited all at the same time? Yeah, that's pretty much where I'm living right now.